I used to think I was in control.
I liked to control as much as possible in a systematic order at my pace with no nasty surprises.

I can control my breath – hold it too long and I will die. My breath, however, will continue whether I think about it or not.

My heart pumps blood around my body, hair and nails grow and many other things occur without me giving it a second thought.

Suppose i’m clumsy enough to hurt myself. My body ensures I am on the receiving end of the pain. Beyond resting, sympathy and deciding whether to go to the hospital.
My involvement in bringing me back to a pre-injured state is minimal.

I often watch documentaries on the human body.
All the cells, bones and the fact up to 60% of the human body is water. I have always wondered, what am I exactly? and ultimately who or what is in control?

I have a say in somethings, but, 90% of seemingly me – I have little say over. What I eat, the exercise I decided to do or not; is this even my choice or am I being influenced on a subliminal level – tricked into the belief that it was indeed my decision.

Alongside my limited alleged control. There is another, with a plan that controls 90% of supposively… me.

It doesn’t ask or seek my permission to help me grow, repair, evolve, decay and inevitably die. This thing? for want of a better word; fights my battles on a molecular level.

Rational

There is this thing that controls about 90% of another thing and the remaining 10% of said thing thinks it’s in complete control.

The 10% has never questioned the 90%, It doesn’t know how; just a passenger. The 10% is deluded. The reality; this is to be human?

Answers

If Lucid Dreaming is a gateway to answers or at least a helpful step to Astral Projection. Then it’s certainly something I will continue to persevere with.